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What Is Love?
Ep 9 : Surprise?

I received a call this morning. It's from Daesung. He told me that he will be in States. To be exact, in Los Angeles (L.A.) in two days. I am so happy, but then I remember that I don't have enough money to go to L.A.; so I just tell him that I am busy that I couldn't come. I won't tell him about my suffering. No! Never! He needs to think that I am busy, so that he will not worry too much. I can't let him worry about me, even though I am missing him like hell.

I know L.A. is the most famous city for Koreans. Most of them stay there when they come to States. But I really wish that he would come here instead. How greed! He's trying so hard to come here despite his crazy schedule! Why can't I be tolerating at all! I am half angry at myself. Then I realize that my reality is not like what people can imagines. I live here saving enough for me to survive.

But what's the point of coming to States when he can't even see me? I wondered to myself. Perhaps he just needs to see someone regarding on his work. Plus, all the members will be here as well. I put up a random guess. Suddenly my phone rings.

"Hello?"

"Hello? Shila?"

I startled. I see the numbers in the screen. It's not Daesung's number. Then who is it?

"Hello? Shila? Are you there?"

"Hello. Yes, this is me".

"Oh, luckily I got your numbers right. Daesung will be totally angry with me if I tell you this," he said.

"Ok….but can I know who is this?"

"It’s me, Seungri".

"Seung...ri? Oh wait. Seung..ri sshi*?" I ask in disbelief.

"Yeah, why? You don't believe it's me?"

"No. It's just that I'm surprised how you get my number".

"Oh, that's not the important thing here. The thing is, I'm going to ask you to take care of that Kang Dae...oops no, Daesung hyung* for us," he continues.

"But why? I thought you guys are coming together".

"Well, the fact is no. Daesung hyung* took the flight 2 days earlier than us to meet you. It seems that he can't wait anymore".

"Are you serious? Seungri sshi*?" I ask again.

But he's not here though, so how can I keep the promise to take care of Daesung.

"Hey! Hey! It’s oppa*! Call me oppa*..... Argh!! It’s hurt hyung*...."

I am still confused with his words when I hear someone else take the phone.

"Hello, Shila? This is Young Bae oppa*. I'm sorry with Seungri's behavior. He always playing around".

"Oh, hello Young Bae sshi*. No that's fine. He just tells me the most important thing, and I am really thankful to him for letting me know about it".

"Did he just tell you everything? Oh my God, this guy! Hey! What did you tell her?!"

I can still hear their voice quarreling over the phone. Honestly, I am about to laugh as they always make some funny scenes between themselves. By then I can hear the phone is passed to someone else.

"So, Shila. I am sorry, but can you pretend that you are surprised with this plan? I mean, Daesung worked hard to get there early and this guy just ruin everything. Aish!"

I laugh. TOP surely is a joker.

"Well, sure. I mean, of course. Don’t worry, I think I know what I should do,” though I sound fine, I seriously can’t keep my face straight at that time. Luckily, they are not here to see my totally freaking out face at that time. I am still very surprised with the news.

"Okay then. Thank you so much. And once again, I am sorry for the wrecked surprised".

"Oh, not at all. Oppa*, all of you guys I wish you a good luck for the next comeback!!" I said cheerfully.

"Yeah, see you soon," he ends it.

Now I know it! Daesung just makes me feel at ease when he said he's coming on the next 2 days. In fact, he could already be here! Oh my, how sweet! But I'm not so sure about where he would be now because the last time he told me, he's going to be in LA. Could that be one of his trick as well? Now I am confused.

My heart strongly wants me to call him after listening to everything- thanks to Seungri. Now I am more worry if he doesn't arrive safely or get lost. I keep on walking back and forth in the house. All my piles of homework are just not to be that important anymore. The phone is in my hand, but I seem to not be able to press that one button. That one button which can change everything.

2:00pm. 3:00pm. 4:00pm. 5:00pm. 6:00pm. He still doesn't give me a call. Not even a text. I'm feeling anxious. If he already left Seoul at the early morning in Korean time, he should at least arrive at someplace by now. If it's not in this town, at least in L.A. Where is he? Why is he doing this to me? Making me all anxious and worry. 7pm. That's it! I'm gonna call him. I grab my phone, search for his number and press the call button.

'Beep..beep...'

I'm still waiting. No response.

'The person you have been calling is now not available..'

What?!! Are you serious?! He never let me wait and ignoring my phone call. What exactly is happening? I can't take this anymore. I start to dial up Seungri's number. Thankfully, I save it in my phone after he called me this morning.

"Yes. Hello. Who’s there?"

He seems to be tired and sleepy.

"Hello. Seungri sshi*. This is Shila. I'm calling to ask if Daesung sshi* really took a flight this morning," I ask without any delay.

"Yes he did. He took the 8:00am flight to States. Why? Did he arrive yet?"

"That's the problem. He's not answering my call. And if he left at 8 this morning, he should at least arrive somewhere by now," I tell him.

"What? Really? Oh no...what is happening..arghhh Daesung hyung*. What to do? Mmm, Shila, don't worry, oppa* will try to call him okay. Don’t worry too much. I'll tell you if I got any news."

"Alright then. Thanks oppa*".

That's the first time ever that I call one of them 'oppa'. I guess this time Seungri seriously deserves it. He helps me a lot.

"What? What did you just say?" he asks in disbelief.

"I said thanks. Why?"

"No. The last words".

I chuckle.

"Oppa. Ah why...."

"Oh my God are you serious? Hahaha I'm so happy. You don't even use that word with Daesung," he yells happily.

"Yeah. Haha.. well I think you deserve it today. So, bye for now," I am going to end the call.

"Yeah. By the way Shila, thanks. Love you," he ends it.

I laugh again. Seungri is so mischievous, but that's not important right now. Where is my dearest love? Thinking of that just making me feel butterfly in the stomach again.

By 8:00pm, I receive a text from Daesung. He asks me what's wrong and tells me that he's sorry because he got too many things to do today that he couldn't pick up the phone. I instantly call him

"Hello?"

"Hello my dear," his angelic voice once again melt my heart.

"Hey! I'm not your darling. Just call me like before". I suddenly becoming strict.

"What’s wrong with that? By the way you are not like this before. What's happening? Are you okay?" he asks with concerns.

"No, I am not. I really..."

"Oh no my love, I got to go. I mean, oppa* gotta go now. Got some work. Take care okay?"

With that he ends the call. What the? What in the world was that?! Why did he behave like a weirdo tonight? I don't even get a chance to finish talking or even asking where he is. Is he trying to toy with my feeling right now? Oh my God. I end up babbling all night and throw out my disappointment towards his attitudes towards me just now.