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Stopping my writing.

Hello...as for now.. I will stop all my writing about Kang Daesung. I will post the full essay I had till now.. but that is it for me. I cannot go further from now on anymore. So sorry with the sudden announcement. But hope you enjoy all those that is left from me.
What Is Love? Ep 10 : First night together? *Few hours later* About midnight, my house bell is ringing loudly. I feel extremely annoyed. Who in the world would come at this time at someone's house! With a heavy heart, I go to open the door when I see someone that I am waiting for is standing right in front of me. I drop my jaw as I see him shivering from the coldness. He smiles while looking at me. "Shi..shi..la,” he stutters. I am still in shock, but he suddenly falls on my shoulders. I can't take his heavy weight thus both of us fall on the ground. I sit on the ground with his head on my body. He looks so pale and I'm panicking. The weather outside is chilling and I can't even carry him inside. I'm too small of a person. To make matter worse, I live alone here in the house so there’s no one that can help me at this time. I try to wake him up as I don't want him to stay like that until morning. Not when the weather is so bad outside. E...
What Is Love? Ep 9 : Surprise? I received a call this morning. It's from Daesung. He told me that he will be in States. To be exact, in Los Angeles (L.A.) in two days. I am so happy, but then I remember that I don't have enough money to go to L.A.; so I just tell him that I am busy that I couldn't come. I won't tell him about my suffering. No! Never! He needs to think that I am busy, so that he will not worry too much. I can't let him worry about me, even though I am missing him like hell. I know L.A. is the most famous city for Koreans. Most of them stay there when they come to States. But I really wish that he would come here instead. How greed! He's trying so hard to come here despite his crazy schedule! Why can't I be tolerating at all! I am half angry at myself. Then I realize that my reality is not like what people can imagines. I live here saving enough for me to survive. But what's the point of coming to States when he can't even...
What Is Love? Ep 8 : Back to reality *Back to reality in present day - Going back to States* He looks at me with tears rolling down his cheek. I can't even stop my own tears right now. "Dae...Daesung sshi*," I barely speak. "Yes?" he replies with a smile, but tears still rolling down. He looks so different. "No. This is not right, Daesung sshi*. We can't be together. I'm sorry about that night. I think I've been hallucinating and dreaming something impossible in my life," I tell him. He looks surprised. "What? Are you serious right now? I know you love me. And don't dare to deny it after you confessed to me two days ago!" he speaks up strictly. I can only cry more and more. "But this is not it! It's never going work between us. I'm sorry that I made you think you love me. Please focus on your career," I reply while holding his arms. "No, no. This is not right. No, you...
What Is Love? Ep 7 : Remember the night While walking, he shared his life story with me. I think somehow that night we had become closer to each other. Listening on how he dropped college just to pursue his dream as a singer, and how he managed to at least graduate from high school alongside every night practiced that ended until late night really made me adore him more. He didn’t seem to fully open with me yet, but a little bit about him were enough for me to understand his situation then when he was still a trainee. Honestly, I never think he is lacking in appearance at all since I first saw him in Family Outing, one of the variety show that he joined in. Even now, when he was standing in front of me, it didn’t even make the feeling to fade away. I wondered if he got himself a girl at this age. Plus, he never had any social media and he is the most secretive between all the members in BIGBANG. I know he got a girlfriend before, but I have no idea about his current status relatio...
What Is Love? Ep 6 : Two days before I was waiting for him at Gangnam roadside. This place supposed to be the last place that I had mark to visit. Perhaps he would give me some suggestions with another place to visit while I was here. I looked at the time. It's been 30 minutes since we promised to meet. I let out a sighed. Perhaps he's too busy today. I almost wanted to leave when I saw his sponsored car or MPV at the end of the road. I knew it! He probably just finished practicing. The car stopped right in front of me. Someone opened the door from inside and ask me to come inside. "Hello Miss Shila. Daesung sshi [1] had send us to pick you up here. Please come inside". I was standing there like a statue. He what? So, he's not here? But I planned to visit Gangnam with him today! What's going on? "Err, hi. Then where is Daesung?" I asked. "He'll be right with you after this," the person said again. "Don...